WOW, I am taken back by how many amazing messages I have already gotten about me getting back in the saddle to start writing again. I wasn't completely sure where this was going to lead. But after five days, the vision has become very clear.
Those who knew me back in the US, I am not the same person I was. I am changed. When I first moved to India, living in Ahmedabad, I knew it was making me a better person. I liked the transformation I was taking for myself. Then I moved to Mumbai and with that came divorce; I had moved to a place where I was actually told to 'stick to my own kind'. I had never in my life experience so many people who were mean and unpleasant to me without ever meeting me or spending five minutes talking to me since I had been in high school. To be honest, I had never in my life experience so many people who treated other people so badly for no reason at all. This city just about destroyed me.
"Why don't you have kids? You'd make an amazing mom." Do you know how many times I've heard this from people of all over the world. Only a couple have been able to recognize that I probably wouldn't make that great of a parent. I normally respond that I have so many people to look after that are like my children. I invest so much time and energy into looking after all my athlete's well being, it is hard enough to dedicate time into me, let alone someone else that I am responsible for keeping alive.
My work has been my life mission for years. Moving to India to help bring more education and change people's lives has been where I have dedicated my mission. But when you give give give, and people want to take take take; the only giving you receive from others is from those who want to take more. It is exhausting. Sometimes it is easy to loose balance and sight of taking care of oneself.
Six months have pasted since I did my last public event, and there is a reason for it. The Giving Tree couldn't give anymore. There was nothing she could GIVE. She needed to care of herself.